Hi love bugs,
I know I haven't posted in a while (I feel like I say this every time but I'm trying to do better with my blog). The reason for this recent absence has been for a good reason (finally right?). I've just been enjoying my life. The closer I get to leaving Salisbury, the better I feel. I've just been carefree. I had my spell of sadness but it comes with the disorder I have. It's all a matter of picking myself up, shaking off the bad and making the best of my life. I am lucky to have people in my life that love and support me through everything because it makes a huge difference.
April is sexual assault month (which falls into my job) and last year if you would have asked me if I dealt with this topic, I would have laughed because it seems so far fetched. I fell into the job I have now and love it. For those that don't know, I work in a domestic abuse shelter and a suicide, counseling and resource hotline, all at once. It's called Maryland 211. I had no idea this hotline even existed but for someone like me, that loves helping others, its an amazing learning experience and I feel good knowing that I mad someone's day. With it being such an important month for my job there have been many events which has packed my schedule. Honestly, I wanted to blog about this month as couple of weeks ago but every time I sat down, I had work to do or sleep.
Outside of this, I have been hitting the gym hard. I brought myself a Fitbit and some wireless headphones which helps a lot in the gym. Eventually I will post some before and after pictures but right now I can feel the differences within my body. It's been a month since I've gotten serious about this and honestly crave the gym sometimes. I have made it a point to go to the gym every time I get off work since I spend most of that time in a chair. It also helps me look forward to something when I'm tired and don't want to go to work because I know that the gym is to follow.
In Koko Loko news, she's still learning everyday and I'm seeing more of myself in her, which I love. She says so many words now and by far my favorite are "da phone" and "da door". Just like everything she says, there is so force behind it. Like hearing her say "Thank You" will make you feel like she's upset with you but it's just her. I also made a # for all of my social media posts for her, #keepingupwithkoko because why not.
Lastly in this update is my upcoming interview for my potential new graduate school. This is my third time applying to grad schools and the first that required an interview which means its real out here in these streets. I applied a month before I became pregnant and got into each school I applied to. The next application process was started when Koko was three weeks old and I got into Salisbury. Honestly, almost everyone told me coming back was a bad idea but looking back at it, I may not have gotten closer to the people I have and found such a good therapist if I didn't come here,
I have some nerves about this interview but I know all I can do is be myself. The biggest worry I had was my outfit, which I now have and feel good about it. It may seem like its not a big deal but I'm a girl with boobs, thighs and booty. Some outfits make me seem like I'm going to the strip club even if I have on slacks and flats. This outfit makes me feel like I look like a classy business lady. Everyone wish me luck because getting in this graduate school means a lot to me. I think it's where I am meant to be and when I am meant to be there.
Overall, I have to say that I'm happy and carefree. I have some ideas of other things to post about (not just updates) so be on the lookout.