Summertime Wrap Up
Let's start with the fact that I'm alive. There have been so many changes in my life that finding the time to breathe, let alone blogging has been almost impossible. Since I always want to be transparent, in all things, these changes, although great, have come with a dark cloud in my life. RIght now, I live 10 minutes away from my school, which starts in a few weeks which is quite convenient. I also live 20 minutes away from my best friend of 10 years and his wife ( I love her too so it's just icing on the cake) but let's talk about whats not. My job is 40 minutes away and I work overnights (11pm-7am) 5 times a week so it's easy to say I spend most of my time driving. This is why most of my money on gas and bills. Additionally, due to my schedule and distance from others, social time is non-existent. I spend most of my days as a walking zombie since I have Koko all day and work at night meaning the only sleep I get is when she naps and the weekends I don't have her.
Now let's look at the positives since I try not to be negative Nancy all the time. I am losing weight and loving it because a major part of my self-care plan is learning to be comfortable in my own body. Remember I spend most of my time driving or at work so I don't get to move much all day so it helps me be a well-rounded person. I need this more than most people since having bipolar disorder requires me to have balance as much as possible (ignore the fact that I don't sleep, I promise we are working out the schedule so I can sleep more). Another positive is that my Koko Butter starts daycare next month (it's for one day a week but still) which gives me major feels. I'm also working on her joining gymnastics or ballet because I want her to grow socially. She is the queen of the side eye and of saying no so I actually am kinda nervous for the kids she interacts with. I'm lucky to have such an active coparent so these things are possible because without him I could barely balance school and work, let alone having Koko join an activity.
Lastly, Koko turns 2 in October! I still havent planned a damn thing but i'm working on it.